Sunday, February 3, 2008

Chinese New Year has come again... bringing with it new clothes (more accurately, LOADS of new clothes). I always face this problem of having nowhere to wear my clothes to. Most of my days are spent in school wearing the dreary grey uniform. Grey is actually a very stylish colour, but on a uniform, coupled with the design, just makes one feel so, so tired after a looong school day.

Faced with the prospect of BRIGHT, new clothes, delicious food (homemade yu sheng!), meeting relatives I haven't seen for a year, a break from school and basically a change of scenery to Malaysia, how more lucky could I get? Must remind myself to get some homework done while I'm there!

Am I EVER unhappy? Definitely yes. Sometimes I can't even figure out exactly why I'm feeling moody. Do I ever feel like an abject failure? Slightly. At times like this I always remember all the things I'm blessed with. With every onset of fear, or loneliness, or dejection, I remind myself that I can't let these emotions control my life. Sometimes I question myself whether something that I'm doing is right. But I think ultimately there is no right thing, and there's only myself to answer to.

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