Beautiful inside my Mind

I often feel guilty about missing so many CCA sessions due to classes. This was the reason I quit last year: I felt that being in a CCA would be futile if I couldn't commit and I was afraid of dragging everyone down. It was SYF year after all. But this year being my last year in JC, I thought if I didn't try I'd never get the chance again to experience performing in a band. It frustrates me if there's something I really want to do but can't. Can't I be selfish for once? Just like how I want to learn to care less about offending others, and to express my opinions or have the option of saying "no" to people's requests. It might be wrong, but this time I want to do something for myself.